X as multiplication

At primary school I was strong in mathematics.
Later, I progressively lost interest for scientifical topics and focused on humanities.

Of course, the teachers at secondary level were not very inspiring, but it is also true that I found difficult (and still do) understanding formulas and abstract theories.

Actually, the same apply for philosophical or artistic theories.  I tend to shy away from more complex reasoning; not sure if that is for laziness or structural limits.

Also, I am not particularly ambitious.

I wondered sometimes where I would be if I had pursued one determined purpose with everything I had got.

Probably, in the same place.